Defining “Me”

Janet (Janet) proper noun

definition 1. Wife, Mother, Grandmother

If someone were to ask me to define myself, this would be my response. I am 3 titles. Wife, Mother, Grandmother. This is who I am.

I know at one point, before I acquired these titles, I was simply “me”. But I can barely remember who that was now. A lifetime has passed. Many paths taken. Many right turns, many wrong turns. Many doors opened, and closed.

When I crossed over my first threshold....Marriage, I think I was so caught up in being part of that institution, I eagerly abandoned what was just “me” in the process. This is a natural progression I am sure, but then again that’s how it began. Shedding layers of me to become “we”.

Then came Motherhood. “Hood” is the key word here. I was definitely part of something bigger than myself. All my thoughts, actions and reactions, all led back to my children, and how it affected them. The bonds of loyalty unsurpassed.

And being a Grandmother? Well most women will tell you it is our reward for all the sacrifice and selflessness of Motherhood. And for the most part, this is true. I wear this title like a tiara, in all it’s crowning glory!

And yet I can’t help but wonder. What happened to Me? And is it possible to be me again without having to relinquish any of my titles?

Now that I am in my declining years, I often find myself saying, “It is what it is”. But.....is it?

So I am thinking this is the time to do it. Finding Me, Defining Me.

Don’t misunderstand. I don’t expect to become an astronaut or anything. That would be funny.....move over Curiosity, Senility is coming up!

I just want to find “Me” again. I’ll keep you posted : )